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I’ve been bemoaning for quite a while that I don’t read nearly as much as I used to so I have drowned myself in things to read atm

* The Edible Woman - Margaret Atwood
* The Road - Cormac McCarthy (so gooooood, gorgeous gorgeous descriptive language, so atmospheric and sad and asjdhjas)
* The Accidental Billionaires - some guy from Boston (I’m just reading it for fun, it’s the book the script for The Social Network is based on. So far it reads as typical male pop lit. Misogynistic undertones intact, perhaps they weren’t as much of a Sorkin invention as much as he just rolled with what was there)
* Never Let Me Go - Kazuo Ishiguro (I just finished reading it and am going for a second round because I really adore it. Very moody.)
* The Unconsoled - Kazuo Ishiguro (apparently it’s a “sprawling, almost indecipherable 500-page work” & “left readers and reviewers baffled” & “invented its own category of badness” so I’m excited)
* Girl With the Dragon Tattoo - Stieg Larsson (why is it so loooong. So far not very interesting but I’m on like chapter 2 so yeah)
* Eating Animals - JSF
* House of Many Ways - Dianna Wynne Jones (she wrote Howl’s Moving Castle and this is a sequel of some sort and I actually liked the book way better than the Miyazaki film so yeah)

Yeah that’s right I’m reading 5 books simultaneously. WISH ME LUCK DEAR GOD WHY AM I DOING THIS FOR FUN.

Uhm and I still have to finish A Clockwork Orange and I’d like to reread the Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford because it’s just my favourite book. As well as Lord of the Rings which will undoubtedly take a million years. And Howl’s Moving Castle. I really really enjoyed it.

I think I'm going to start using my LJ more for writing down stuff about movies and books and what not. I've become very isolated recently so I have to get my thoughts out somehow.

Jun. 20th, 2010

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I'm so trapped, I don't know what to do.

I'm so so terrified. There's nothing I can do anymore, I am a failure. I'm nothing.

I really really need to die.

Writer's Block: Killer tomatoes

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What's your favorite cult film of all time, and why? What are the essential ingredients for a cult classic?


Finally, a question that is not retarded because it's not trying to be really deep despite the person who came up with it not actually putting any thought into the question.


derp idk I generally enjoy most cult movies because I suffer from hipster syndrome like that. I love love love love love If .... and A Clockwork Orange to death. I have the biggest crush on Malcolm McDowell ever (dem eyes, dat accent). To be complete honest right now, I know more about classic film and stuff like that than I have experienced. Like much much more. I can tell you a lot about movies that I've never seen. So I didn't watch A Clockwork Orange in it's entirety until a week or two ago. I then proceeded to watch it four more times within the next two days.

And all I can say is, oh my god I love Kubrick so much. The Shining is a film from my childhood. It was always on tv so by the time I was 12 I had probably seen it a dozen times. That guy could do no wrong.

And Fight Club too I guess, does that count

Also Donnie Darko has the best score ever so I don`t care what anyone says, the atmosphere is incredible

The essential ingrediants to a cult classic is
1. the movie must be terrible or have a weird concept so that it receives limited distribution and marketing, thus failing at the box office
2. an undefined amount of time later, a hipster must find it in a bargain bin, watch it and tell all their friends about it, cult following is formed yeah

Writer's Block: Snark, who goes there?

dilate
Have you ever said something to an online friend that you would never say in person? Do you think it's easier to discount real feelings when a relationship takes place largely online? Can the emotional disconnect become habit-forming?


Yes, because I am one of those sad people who don't have real life friends, at least ones that I can express myself comfortably around. And yes, it is easier, because the internet person usually doesn't know entirely what you look like or sound like so anonymity, words instead of a face and noise, make everything far less awkward.

I guess it can be habit forming, I have come to the unfortunate realization that I most be an attention whore. I'm definitely addicted to attention from other people, I check my e-mail every 2 seconds, when I upload something on DA I refresh the page for a decent period of time to see if anyone's commented yet, if I ever post anything anonymously I check it obsessively, I have to see every other comment that has occurred on that thread as well, etc etc.

Though internet relationships weigh on my mind a lot more. In reality, it's far easier to tell if someone doesn't like your or if they're avoiding you. On the internet, it could just be a coincidence, maybe they're busy or don't live their fucking lives in front of a computer screen, or maybe they really do hate you.

I'm always worried that people don't think I like them because I can never think of anything good enough to comment or reply with most of the time so I probably seem like I ignore everyone. And I am constantly paranoid that everyone doesn't like me.

Because I am self-centred derp


Uhhhhhh hi my life is entirely in shambles, I am such a mess

eta: I totally misinterpreted this, as I make bitchy comments to my friend IRL and online all the time, to me that is easy. It's the being real and emotional part that I can only confide to internet people.

Merry Christmas

psychonauts 'i wish i were a man'
And happy holidays and all that.

Uh, I just want to say thanks you guys for dealing with my retarded self hurr hurr I apologize for any dumb comments I ever left you or anything like that, I'm pretty sure I actually have depression, so thanks for leaving me nice comments and stuff. I totally love all of you guys in a sort of grovelling peasant to your majesty sort of way, I could list all of you here but I hope you know I MEAN YOU WHEN I SAY HAPPY HOLIDAYS. Yes, even you.

Also:

PYJAMAS (I didn't get any but still)
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If a magic genie told you your calories wouldn't count for 24 hours, would it change what and how much you ate that day?


Um, not entirely.

To me the healthyness of food matters more than calories. I wouldn't feel very good eating white bread or sweets or anythings like that even if the calories didn't count.

And I'd also be paranoid I'd reaquire a taste for all the junk food, for the cheese and meat and all that. Because I've noticed that taste tends to develop. When i was little tomatoes would make me gag. Now I love them. Because I changed my eating habits, unhealthy things no longer taste good too me. I have no desire for them.

At most I'd go eat really healthy, balanced meals at a restuarant for the whole day. Because my main problem with weight loss is that my metabolism is pretty much dead. I don't eat enough because I'm afraid and paranoid so my metabolism has slowed to a terrible pace.

Maybe I'd even have an omelette for breakfast.

Writer's Block: Under Protest

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Have you ever participated in a boycott? What did you boycott and why?


Yes, I never ever go to Walmart and encourage others to do so as well. I've never even been there, because this avoidance of corporate evil (lol do I sound paranoid?) stems from my hippie parents.

I think this will amuse and enlighten you -> Waldemart Watch

I've also never owned a Microwave because that shit is just scary.

And cellphones. Brain tumors + possibly causing massive crop failure due to the effect of cellphone waves may or may not have on bees navigation senses IS NOT COOL. AND WE ALL LIKE BEES, RIGHT? THEY MAKE YUMMY HONEY.

I also try to avoid buying things from China, because it's just all crazy like that, my mom is also really into Buddhism so we support the Free Tibet movement.

OH, THE EFFECTS OF HIPPIE PARENTS.

And fast food/big companies in general I guess. There's a lot of good local stores and restaurants in my town that meet all my needs. I never really had a taste for fast food so yeah.

OH OH YEAH AND AND

I think this pictures summarizes my feelings about Shell pretty well, even though I refuse to drive a car anyways. My dad does avoid Shell though

Writer's Block: Mix and Mingle

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How do you react when you get nervous in social situations?


Terribly. I'm insanely self-conscious, shy and aware of what other people think. So social situations = nervousness for me.

Usually I just look at my feet or the floor or the table and stay silent, attempt to find a good moment to escape. Oh, and if I do speak I stutter terribly or forget words in my sentence.

I just always feel really bad among people. I can't stand being around them. When I'm at school, I usually spend lunch breaks hiding in the bathroom. DO NOT WANT TO BE SEEN.

God, I really really don't want to go back to school. ;_________;

Writer's Block: I May Be Crazy

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What does this Rorschach blot look like to you?


Does everyone get a different one? Because that's fun.

I see two piglets with the horizon being vertical, and they're feeding on something. I also see Wile E. Coyote's face.
electro
I rode my first roller coaster today.

There were these five blissful seconds when we were climbing that I felt like it was going to be fun. We were supposed to be measuring the G-force and I had the little gravity measuring device clutched in my fist. I was entrusted with it.

But oh god I lost it at the first drop. And by 'it' I mean my mind.


In summary Im a giant wimpCollapse )

wuthi i'm sure you are all interested as I am the most boring person to ever write words in the history of word writing.